Mix 41:
(35 min, neutral to optimistic)

Lots of Favorites on here. Everybody Here Hates You, Samaritan, Everybody’s Something are all top tier songs that resonate a lot with me. Pretty sure I made this while I had a new crush. So that explains the good mood.

Like an Umlaut in English by Bonaparte
Time for Yourself by Earlimart
Leonie by Alicia Edelweiss
Everybody Here Hates You by Courtney Barnett
Samaritan by Noname (feat. Mick Jenkins)
Everybody’s Something by Chance the Rapper (feat. Saba & BJ The Chicago Kid)
Everybody (Love/Arthur Lee Cover) by Mac Miller
This Room (BBC Sessions Version) by Fat Freddy’s Drop

Mix 42:
(35 min, romantic)

To this day I don’t know what inspired this lovey dovey mix. I was dating someone at the time I made this but it wasn’t very romantic between us and I had kind of one foot out the door, so I have no idea where this came from. It is very beautiful though.
The new Fiona Apple record had come out earlier that year which was a big event for a die-hard fan like me especially because she only releases like one record per decade. Also the new Soko record, which is very obvious because there’s one song from that record on basically every mix for the next 5 mixes. ^^

Close to Me by The Cure
Rack of His by Fiona Apple
Being is Bewildering by Moloko
Being Sad is not a Crime by Soko
Es geht immer ums Vollenden by Nino aus Wien
We fall again by Pink Guy
Dunno by Mac Miller
Long Time by Chance the Rapper
Fetch the Boltcutters by Fiona Apple

Mix 43:
(30 min, pretty with a pinch of melancholy and edge, rap-heavy)

I looove this mix. It was inspired by me breaking up with a guy who was kind of a shitty dude so it was really easy and pain-free for me and I was over it immediately and already crushing on someone else. It is probably an acquired taste for people who are not me because there are a few weird song choices on here that I never got anyone else into. “She’s so nice” should be unlistenable to me because of how vile and misogynistic it sounds but I read it as commentary on how fucked up hooking up with guys can feel sometimes. All of the verses are really demeaning towards women, bragging about sex, taunting another man over how much of a slut their girlfriend is and then the song breaks and the singer gets really soft voiced and sweet singing in the chorus about how nice the girl is and how nice it is of her that she lets him use her and treat her badly. I am ashamed to say I can rap along to all of the disgusting lines. Pink Guy in general is a big guilty pleasure of mine. I would never show it to any of my non-edgy humored friends but I unfortunately still love it.

Expectations by Belle and Sebastian
This is Home by Cavetown
Try it Again by Jeffrey Lewis
Looking for Love by Soko
Demons by Joji
The Question by Mac Miller (feat. Lil Wayne)
She’s so nice by Pink Guy
My Vag by Awkwafina
I am free by Princess Nokia

Mix 44:
(25 min, lovey dovey, rap-heavy)

I was crushing so hard on someone when I made this. It sounds so sweet and cute and pretty. It makes me happy even though the crush I (unofficially) made it for ended up really hurting me and went nowhere. But I didn’t know that yet at this point.

Replaceable Heads by Soko
Heart by Princess Nokia
Testify by Awkwafina
Come Back to Earth by Mac Miller
Thom by Joji
Clay Pidgeons by Deca
Theme from Becky by Kae Tempest
I wanna know what love is by Kathleen Hanna

Mix 45:
(29, subdued, sulking, self indulgent)

Remember when I just said that that crush ended up really hurting me? We’re already on that mix. But it still didn’t end here even though it should have. I ended up making so many more mixes sulking about this stupid guy not liking me. Aaahh, so infuriating!
I low key hate this mix because it just reminds me of feeling pathetic and stupid and being stoned and depressed all the time.
And it’s not even a great heartbreak mix because I had already used all of my good stuff 2 years earlier.
The song ATTENTION annoys me so much, too. Stop wanting this guy’s attention and feeling sorry for yourself!!

14.400 Minutes by Chance the Rapper
Home Base by Deca (feat. Eligh)
I Can See by Mac Miller
ATTENTION by Joji
Beautiful Crazy by Space Raiders
Daydream in Blue (BBC Radio 2 Version) by I Monster
It’s not Impossible by Jeffrey Lewis
Did You See Me (Mollusk Sessions Version) by Ween
Kria 2 (interlude) by Deca