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  • Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 6)

    Annas Mix 26:

    (42 min, mellow and pretty)

    

From when I was 18/19. Pretty solid mix. Lots of 10/10 songs that still mean a lot to me. Once Around the Block, Green Grass and Do you Believe are some of the most perfect songs ever made imo. 


    If you want to see one of the most heartfelt beautiful performances ever watch this version of Do You Believe:
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yf_HaZLZ6Gs

    Bitch, Can’t Kill My Vibe by Kendrick Lamar

    Ms by Alt-J

    Once Around the Block by Badly Drawn Boy

    Unknown Brother by The Black Keys

    Weißes Papier by Element of Crime
    
So He Won’t Break by The Black Keys

    Bitte bleib by AnnenMayKantereit

    Green Grass by Tom Waits
    
Harmony by The Avalanches
    
Do You Believe by Melanie
    
Goodbye Song by The Moldy Peaches




    Annas Mix 27
    
(40 min, a bit strange and unhinged, in a good way)

    

I really had a vision here. I still really like it but would change a few songs that don’t quite fit right.
    
Also first Deca appearance, who I would end up listening to death in the next 5-10 years. The boyfriend of my best friend back then had a really nice taste in music, especially rap and would often play Deca at her place. I am pretty sure he also introduced me to Kendrick.

    

Prnavor by Emir Kusturica & the No Smoking Orchestra
    
Mad World by Gary Jules

    Poor Jackie by Man Man
    
Bully Boys by The Tiger Lillies
    
Bad Habit by The Dresden Dolls

    My Alcoholic Friends by The Dresden Dolls

    Rabbit Habbits by Man Man
    
Charlotte Mittnacht by DeVotchka

    Was Romeo Really A Jerk by Emir Kusturica & the No Smoking Orchestra
    
Maschin by Bilderbuch

    Movement by Deca




    Annas Mix 28
:
    (21 min, depressing)
    

    Anything But The Truth by Jack Johnson

    Abused by Elliott Smith

    No Surprises by Radiohead
    
Verlorene Zeit by Fiva MC

    My Eyes by The Lumineers

    Creep (Hungover at Soundcheck in Berlin) (Radiohead Cover) by Amanda Palmer



    Annas Mix 29:
    
(28 min, a bit depressing but not too bad)

    

I have so many important memories tied to the songs on this mix. I remember listening to Damaged Goods in a flixbus to Amsterdam, while heartbroken over an unrequited crush, I remember listening to In My Mind in my moms garden on a warm night with a close friend of mine (who I’m still friends with <3) after talking about how we always end up unhappily in love with people, I remember showing this to a guy I really liked and him telling me later that he thought it was a good mix and that he listened to it again.
    In Love is btw is still the best song to describe how it feels to me to have a crush.

    

Hey by Pixies

    Doll Parts by Hole
    
In Love by The Raincoats
    
Bastard by Petsch Moser

    Liebes Tagebuch by Tocotronic

    I Was Born (A Unicorn) by The Unicorns

    Anxiety Attack by Jeffrey Lewis
    
Damaged Goods by Days N’ Daze

    In My Mind by Amanda Palmer




    Annas Mix 30
:
    (33 min, somewhat depressing and heartbroken)

    

Perfect mix. 10/10. It was the second to last mix I made fuelled by my heartbreak over a friend I was unhappily in love with from 18 to 20. That fucked me up so bad and ended up with me being a complete wreck. These days I would never do that to myself. Staying friends with someone who rejected you and who you’re still desperately and madly in love with is just torture. Especially if they toy with your emotions and always dangle the possibility in front of you that it still might happen.
    
Unrelated but still noteworthy: Not Ready Yet is one of the best songs ever and should be the official anthem of all anxious people. 



    I Don’t Wanna Die by The Unicorns
    
Not Ready Yet by Eels
    
Fake Plastic Trees (Radiohead Cover) by Amanda Palmer

    Waltz (XO) by Elliott Smith

    Not About Love (original Jon Brion version) by Fiona Apple

    Don’t You Touch Me by Soko
    
Ich mache meinen Frieden mit euch by Tocotronic
    
Alphabet by Jeffrey Lewis

    Unter Vier Augen by Waxolutionists feat. Fiva

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  • Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 5)

    Annas Mix 21:

    (28 min, mostly upbeat)

    

I don’t really like this one. It was originally longer and I cut 3 songs because it was all over the place but it still feels a bit incohesive. I think it’s from the time I was around 17/18 and had to move back to my mother’s place because of a catastrophic failed shared flat situation with my best friend back then. Not a good time.



    After Hours by The Velvet Underground

    Look at Me by John Lennon

    Amazing Glow by The Pernice Brothers
    
Infiltration by Sam Phillips

    You Make Me Feel Good by The Zombies

    Take Me Out (Franz Ferdinand Cover, Live At BBC Radio One) by Scissor Sisters 

    Singing The Blues by Guy Mitchell

    Le Temps de l’Amour by Françoise Hardy

    I Wonder by Rodriguez

    I Want My Baby Back

 by Stevie Wonder


    Annas Mix 22:

    (32 min, mostly upbeat)



    Hard To Be A Girl by Adam Green

    40 Days, 40 Fights by Badly Drawn Boy
    
Wann strahlst Du by Erobique & Jacques Palminger

    Ocean of Tears by Soko
    Back From The Dead by Babyshambles

    I’m A Cuckoo by Belle and Sebastian

    We’re Going to be Friends by The White Stripes

    Speeding Motorcycle (Daniel Johnston Cover) by Yo La Tengo
    Utopian Futures by Kimya Dawson




    Annas Mix 23:
    
(32 min, mostly upbeat)



    From when I was 18. It’s getting hard to remember from when each mix is but I know that the Avalanches album Wildflower was freshly out so it must’ve been then. I remember that I had just met who would become my best friend for many years through an event my first boyfriend brought me to and Wildflower was the first of a lot really great music she recommended to me. I have never met anyone before or since with a music taste as good or as compatible with mine as hers. Also I had just started going to Metalab because I remember discovering that last song at the old lounge there.



    Left Hand Free by Alt-J

    Temporary Mood Swings by Soko

    The Noisy Eater by The Avalanches
    
Eye Know by De la Soul

    Who Loves the Sun by The Velvet Underground
    
Please Do Not Go by Violent Femmes

    The Prince’s Bed by Adam Green
    
My Heroes by Kimya Dawson
    
And Darling by Tegan & Sara

    Nothing to Prove by Geek Girls & The Doubleclicks




    Annas Mix 24:
    
(36 min, cute and pretty)

    

A lot of cute stuff but also a few songs I now cringe at a bit. I am ashamed to admit I, as a teen, have seen the Lumineers live, not once but twice!! But my soon to be best friend back then showed Flight of the Conchords to me for the first time and I was immediately a die hard fan. Such a great show and great music. Carol Brown is such a sweet beautiful song. Probably my favorite.



    What Can I say (Joey Spampinato Cover) by Yo la Tengo

    Please be Patient with me by Wilco

    Velvet Rabbit by Kimya Dawson
    
Dress Up in You by Belle and Sebastian
    
Ho Hey by The Lumineers

    St. Expedite by Grant Lee-Phillips
    
Fortunate Fool by Jack Johnson
    
I Don’t Love Anyone by Pete Doherty
    
Leggy Blonde by Flight of the Conchords
    
Musical Ladders by Adam Green
    
Carol Brown by Flight of the Conchords




    Annas Mix 25:

    (31 min, heartbroken but not exclusively sad, only female singers)

    

One of my favorite mixes I ever made. I had broken up with my boyfriend a couple of months earlier but was already heartbroken over another unrequited crush. I had just discovered Bojack Horseman and through that Courtney Barnett. Also one of my all time favorite songs that I identify with sooo strongly had just come out and blew my mind. Sweet Sound of Ignorance.
When it first came out I was already feeling like shit, so it got me especially hard. I listened to it on repeat for a long time and cried so so much.



    Nothing is Good Enough by Aimee Mann

    Ugly by Juliana Hatfield

    Fuck, Was I by Jenny Owen Youngs
    
Baby Day by Melanie

    I Heard Love is Blind by Amy Winehouse
    
Love Affair by Regina Spektor

    Passive Manipulation by The White Stripes
    
Bye bye Baby by Noname

    Avant Gardener by Courtney Barnett
    Sweet Sound of Ignorance by Soko

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  • Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 4)

    Annas Mix 16:
    
(31 min, harmonious/comforting)

    

“Tonight I’ll be staying here with you” by Bob Dylan
    
“Lisa Says” by Lou Reed

    “The Weight” by The Band

    “Lola” by The Kinks
    
“Here She Comes Now” by The Velvet Underground

    “Seeing Other People” by Belle and Sebastian

    “Hey Jude” by The Beatles




    Annas Mix 17:

    (24 min, a bit sad)



    From when I was 18. I think this wasn’t originally no. 17. At some point in the last 10 year I wanted all my numbered mixes to be somewhat good, so I reworked some and replaced others.
I had completely forgotten about this one. I have most of my mixes also as playlists in my music library on my computer but this one was lost for some reason. But luckily I still found the physical CD somewhere. Now I have it again. \o/



    “Don’t Panic” by Coldplay

    “My Bike” by Kimya Dawson

    “One Day” (Asaf Avidan Cover) by Annenmaykantereit

    “The Past Recedes” by John Frusciante
    
“I’m Around” by John Frusciante
    
“Easy Way Out” by Elliott Smith
    
“Casket Pretty” by Noname
    
“Kiwi Maddog 20/20” by Elliott Smith





    Annas Mix 18:

    (34 min, melancholic, sweet)



    This is so beautiful!! I’ve been listening to a lot of these old mixes again for the first time in a while writing them down for these posts and different mixes give me different reactions. Sometimes I cringe a bit, often I feel really sorry for the younger versions of myself because of how deeply unhappy and hopeless I was back then.
When I listen to this one I am just filled with love and admiration for teenie Anna.



    “Wave of Mutilation” (Pixies Cover) by Grant Lee Phillips
    “Reminders of Then” by Kimya Dawson

    “Sky Blue Sky” by Wilco

    “Unattainable” by Little Joy
    
“Eleanor Put Your Boots On” by Franz Ferdinand

    “I’ll keep it with mine” by Nico

    “Care of Cell 44” (The Zombies Cover) by Elliott Smith

    “That’s The Story Of My Life” by The Velvet Underground

    “Lady Don’t Fall Backwards” by Pete Doherty

    “One Day Late” by Sam Phillips

    “These Days” (Nico Cover) by Elliott Smith



    Annas Mix 19:

    (54 min, mostly sad)


    From when I was 16. I made this one really fast without much thought because I was having a really really bad day and just needed to take a drive and listen to music that resonated with how I was feeling. So I quickly put some stuff on there and burned a CD for the drive. I don’t remember who drove me. Either my mom or one of the caregivers in the group home.
    
Btw I will defend those two songs Robert Pattinson recorded for the first Twilight Soundtrack till the day I die. I know people meme on them and he’s most likely ashamed of them, because they were all removed from streaming but I still love them!

    

“Fade Into You” by Mazzy Star

    “Take Everything” by Mazzy Star

    “I’ve been let down” by Mazzy Star

    “Northern Sky” by Nick Drake
    
“Hanging on a Star” by Nick Drake

    “Voice from the Mountain” by Nick Drake

    “Some Song” by Elliott Smith
    “Who’s gonna save my Soul” by Gnarls Barkley

    “This Time Tomorrow” by The Kinks
    
“Always See Your Face” by Love

    “Last of the English Roses” by Pete Doherty

    “Sheepskin Tearaway” by Pete Doherty

    “New Love Grows On Trees” by Pete Doherty

    “Never Think” by Robert Pattinson

    “Let Me Sign” by Robert Pattinson





    Annas Mix 20 (für Mira)

    (52 min, only rap)

    

I made this one specifically for my sister when I was 17/18. I don’t remember why. Probably because we were doing a road trip or something and I wanted to have a mix prepared that she would for sure enjoy. She’s almost 10 years older than me and I grew up listening to a lot of rap because that’s what she was listening to.



    “Liebeslied” by Absolute Beginner
    “Autos und Frauen” by Blumentopf
    
“Feier dich Selbst” by Curse
    
“Überdosis Fremdscham” by Jan Delay

    “Eimsbusch 07/11” by Freundeskreis feat. Samy Deluxe
    
“Gustav Gans” by Absolute Beginner
    
“Eye Know” by De La Soul

    “Work it Out” by Jurassic 5
    
“World of Entertainment” by Jurassic 5

    “Tread Water” by De La Soul

    “Nachtmensch” by Texta

    “Erste Schritte/Retrospektive” by Freundeskreis

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  • Recently released music/film/TV/etc. recommendations

    Music:

    “Girlfriend” by Grace Ives (2026)

    I got into her because she played at this years Primavera Sound. I had never heard of her and I am now a big fan. Girlfriend is her newest album, released in 2026. I think her 2nd album Janky Star from 2022 is her best but this ones a close 2nd. It’s Pop which I don’t always like but her stuff just sounds really good to me and the lyrics are very relatable. If you like Chappell Roan or Lorde you might like her too.
    My favs from Girlfriend are “Avanlanche”, “Dance with me” and “Trouble”.

    “The World Is Not Good Enough” by Sean Solomon (2026)

    Another artist I’ve just recently discovered. Apparently he’s part of multiple bands, but I had never heard of any of them.
    The album is kind of indie folk with a lo-fi vibe. Both the general vibes and the lyrics are quite depressing and emo, which I love.
    Also he said that one of his influences is Elliott Smith which always gets bonus points from me.
    If you like melancholic indie stuff like Neutral Milk Hotel or Sufjan Stevens you might like his album.
    My favorite songs are “Car crash”, “Overdose” and “Remember”.

    Film:

    “The Drama” by Kristoffer Borgli (2026)

    This movie was sooo good. Mild spoilers ahead (but only stuff you find out like 15-20 min into the movie)
    It’s about an engaged couple played by Robert Pattinson and Zendaya who, shortly before their wedding, hang out with a couple they are friends with and one of the friends want to play a game where everyone tells one really bad secret. When it’s Zendaya’s characters turn she reveals that she was a really alienated, angry teenager (relatable!) and that when she was in high school she planned to do a mass shooting but then didn’t end up going through with it. The friends and her fiance are really disturbed by the revelation and it completely changes their dynamic and makes him question their relationship during the time right before their wedding.
    Both the acting and the script are really good. 9/10!

    Show:

    D.T.F. St. Louis (2026)

    It stars almost exclusively actors I love from other shows or movies. Jason Bateman (Arrested Development), David Harbor (West End Girl lol), Linda Cardellini (Freaks and Geeks), Richard Jenkins (Six Feet Under) and, in a small-ish role Peter Sarsgard (Garden State).
    The setting is that two straight married guys (Bateman and Harbor) start a really close friendship and one of them ends up dead. The death is being investigated by two detectives (one of them played by Jenkins). But that’s just the setting. The whole murder mystery set-up is really captivating but the show, at its core isn’t really about that in my opinion. It’s about how precious and important friendship can be, how lonely and desperate most people are deep down and how everything (people, relationships) isn’t as it seems when you judge it at first glance. The writing is soooo fucking good. It’s the best show I have seen in years and I watch a lot of TV. It is so good in fact that I watched it 2 and a half times within a couple of weeks after discovering it (shout-out to my friend Anna who recommended it) and honestly I could watch it a third time right now if someone asked me to. That’s how much I love it!! It both broke and healed me at the same time and it made me realize how much I crave the kind of love the two friends have with each other. I don’t remember ever having such a beautiful intimate friendship or relationship in general. 11/10

    Book(s):

    Famesick by Lena Dunham (2026)

    This is Lena Dunhams 2nd memoir and I’ve read both. This one is far superior to the first one. I read a lot memoirs written by famous women. In fact it might be my favorite genre of books. I feel like I gain a lot of knowledge from reading them and I feel connected and less alone when I read about how complex and, a lot of the time, fucked up even people that I admire are.
    This book is about letting yourself be treated like shit because you don’t value yourself both in relationships and at work, about how difficult it is to be a woman in the industry, how it feels to be chronically ill but forcing yourself to act and work like you aren’t. How the expectations are to work until you can’t anymore and how being a person, especially a woman in the public eye leads to being sucked dry of all your energy and scrutinized until you feel completely unlovable.
    I laughed and cried and related a lot. And I gained a lot of admiration for Lena Dunham. I wasn’t always a fan and it’s easy to judge her for all the controversies she had. But I honestly can’t imagine many people not liking her after reading this.
    It’s so funny and honest and incredibly well written. 10/10

    The Make-Believe by Hannah Murray (2026)

    Another memoir by a famous woman. My favorite!
    This one is written by Hannah Murray who played my favorite character in one of my favorite shows from when I was a teen: Skins. I didn’t really follow her career after that. Apparently she also played Gilly in Game of Thrones (which I never watched beyond S1 because I was so put off by all the rape scenes).
    The book is specifically about how she was lulled into joining an esoteric wellness cult in her 20s and about her having a psychotic break due to undiagnosed bipolar disorder.
    I’ve read multiple books by people who suffer from severe mental illness but her account of how it felt/feels to be bipolar and have psychotic delusions were really especially interesting to me. I’ve never heard such an honest unfiltered account about what can happen in your brain during psychosis. I feel like I gained a new sense of empathy for people who are bipolar and/or psychotic through reading this book.
    Also the whole esoteric energy healing cult thing is really interesting. My whole family is very esoteric and I always want to stay away as far as possible from all of it. Her experiences only solidified my opinion on people who present themselves as gurus trying to sell you healing and enlightenment.
    Really really interesting and well written. 9.5/10

    Stand-Up:

    Robby Hoffman: Wake Up (2025)

    This was released very late into 2025 and it’s the second comedy special of Robby Hoffman, who you might have seen on Hacks or Rooster. She’s also married to a former Bachelorette Gaby Windey.
    It’s really rare and special these days for someone to create a new comedy special that feels entirely original and not at all obnoxious or politically incorrect just for the sake of screaming how the woke left will never be able to cancel you.
    Robby Hoffman’s humor is quite edgy but in such a refreshing way that I really enjoyed it. A lot of the jokes are about growing up poor, being gay and genderqueer and about the queer community. She also pokes a lot of fun at straight people.
    She’s not trying to be sensitive AT ALL. In fact she’s a bit of an asshole but most great comedians are in my opinion.
    Would not recommend for people who are overly sensitive when it comes to humor or who don’t enjoy some edginess.
    I watched it twice already and will probably watch it again. 9/10

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  • Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 3)

    Annas Mix 11:
    
(32 min, light, sweet, happy)

    

I really love this mix. I made it on a good day for a specific road trip with my mom I was looking forward to when I was 15 I think.
    I remember sitting in the car feeling really happy and proud about making such a good mix for us to enjoy.

    

“Fleischfresser” by Funny van Dannen
    “So Nice So smart” by Kimya Dawson

    “Magic For Everybody” by Sam Phillips
    “Truly, Truly” by Grant Lee Buffalo
    “From Me To you” by The Beatles
    “The Red Telephone” by Love

    “Me And the Major” by Belle And Sebastian
    
“Lazy” by Daniel Johnston

    “Condor Ave” by Elliott Smith
    
“Lazy Confessions” by The Moldy Peaches





    Annas Mix 12:

    (26 min, melancholic, sweet and a bit sad)



    Very beautiful mix. I made this at age 15. I had just moved out of my mom’s place and I listened to it for the first while she was driving me home after visiting her. I was unhappily in love back then, my first really really hard infatuation with someone and I was also having lots of difficulties with my family.




    “Most of the Time” by Bob Dylan

    “Walk on the Wild Side” by Lou Reed

    “The Good Humor Man He Sees Everything” by Love

    “I found a Reason” by The Velvet Underground
    
“From the Morning” by Nick Drake

    “New Slang” by The Shins

    “Thirteen” (Big Star Cover) by Elliott Smith





    Annas Mix 13:

    (39 min, melancholic/sad)



    I made this mix when I was 15 because my best friend at the time was feeling sad and I asked one of the social workers in our group home to take us for a ride so we could listen to it hoping it would cheer my friend up. I had just exchanged music collections with another caregiver and started listening to a lot of indie stuff she had shared with me like Bombay Bicycle Club, Cat Power and City & Colour. Tbh I stopped listening to a lot of the music on here. 
I still enjoy the first half though.

    “Something To Talk About” by Badly Drawn Boy
    
“I’ve Been Let Down” by Mazzy Star
    
“Jorge Regula” by The Moldy Peaches

    “Corrina, Corrina” by Bob Dylan

    “Albion” by Babyshambles

    “How Can You Swallow So Much Sleep” by Bombay Bicycle Club
“Two Fingers” by Jake Bugg

    “The Death of Me” by City & Colour
    
“Sway” by The Kooks

    “3, 6, 9” by Cat Power

    “So Perfekt” by Casper


    

Annas Mix 14:

    (33 min, yearning, a bit melancholic)



    This was originally twice as long and I cut it down to this at some point. I remember forgetting the CD in one of the cars our group home shared and one of the caregivers listened to it and complimented my taste in music. As a very mature “old soul” teen (*cough* autistic) validation from adults or older teens meant everything to me. Btw I grew to love the last song “Green Eyes” because it was one that that one social worker (that I bonded over exchanging music collections) would always sing and play on her guitar for me.

    


“I’m So Tired” by The Beatles
    
“I Believe (When I Fall in Love) by Stevie Wonder

    “Beechwood Park” by The Zombies

    “Maybe After He’s Gone” by The Zombies
    
“Like A Rolling Stone” by Bob Dylan
    
“La Belle Et La Bete” by Babyshambles
    “Sheepskin Tearaway” by Pete Doherty

    “He Can Only Hold her” by Amy Winehouse

    “Green Eyes” by Coldplay





    Annas Mix 15:

    (26 min, mostly folky stuff)



    From when I was 15. I had just started smoking cigarettes and wasn’t allowed to openly smoke in my group home yet (if you got caught smoking under the age of 16 you’d lose a couple Euros of your pocket money) because I wasn’t old enough. So I would take long walks through our village listening to this and smoking one cigarette after the other.

    

“Whatever (Folk song in C) by Elliott Smith

    “Street Boy” by Rodriguez
    
“One of these things first” by Nick Drake

    “So long” by The Kinks

    “The Castle” by Love

    “Motorpsycho Nightmare” by Bob Dylan
    
“This is Not a Song, It’s an Outburst” by Rodriguez
    
“All My Rowdy Friends Have Settled Down” (Hank Williams Jr. Cover) by Elliott Smith

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  • Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 2)

    Annas Mix 6:
    (31 min, mixed emotions, but not too much of a downer)

    

Very good mix. Still from around the time I was 14.

    “Too much on my Mind” really spoke to me at that time. It’s one of the few songs I put on more than one Mix.

    

“I Am the Rain” by Pete Doherty

    “Out of Time Man” by Mick Harvey

    “Didn’t I” by Darondo
    
“I try” by Macy Gray

    “Oh! Sweet Nuthin’” by The Velvet Underground
    “Too Much On My Mind” by The Kinks
    
“If I could Write” by Sam Phillips
    
“Dear Catastrophe Waitress” by Belle and Sebastian
    
“Little Miss Queen of Darkness” by The Kinks





    Annas Mix 7:
    
(20 min, mostly 60s rock)



    Not bad, but also not my favorite. Definitely not as personal as a lot of the other mixes from that time.



    “Take it as it comes” by The Doors
    
“One Step Beyond” by Madness
    
“Robert Montgomery” by Love
    
“Here Comes Your Man” By Pixies

    “Talking in My Sleep” by Love

    “White Light/White Heat” by The Velvet Underground
    
“You’re Gonna Miss Me” by 13th Floor Elevator




    Annas Mix 8:
    
(45 min, mostly upbeat)



    Very all over the place but I still like it. I made this one specifically for a family road trip and it didn’t receive much love from my audience. I still can remember how rejected I felt because I had put in a lot of love and thought into it and wanted to make everyone happy.

    

“Bitch” by Meredith Brooks

    “There She Goes Again” by The Velvet Underground

    “You’re Looking Fine” by The Kinks
    
“Ball And Biscuit” by The White Stripes

    “Sometimes” by Antsy Pants

    “Heroin” by The Velvet Underground
    
“Alma Mater” by Alice Cooper
    “Too Much on My Mind” by The Kinks
    
“Smackwater Jack” by Carol King
    
“In the Mood” by Glenn Miller
    
“The Way you look Tonight” by Frank Sinatra


    

Annas Mix 9:

    (29 min, melancholic mixed with upbeat)



    Not one of my favourites. It’s not bad but there wasn’t a lot of thought put into it.

    I think during this time I was really enthusiastic about making lots of mixes all the time but wasn’t close to as perfectionist as I am now with the composition of mixes. I just put on a bunch of songs I liked on a playlist and burned it on CD.

    

“The State I Am In” by Belle and Sebastian
    
“Fill My Eyes” by Cat Stevens
    
“Corrina, Corrina” by Bob Dylan

    “This Is Where I Belong” by The Kinks
    
“Eight Days A Week” by The Beatles
    
“What Became of the Likely Lads” by The Libertines

    “Hey Jude” by The Beatles





    Annas Mix 10:

    (22 min, melancholic, yearning)

    

I love all of the songs on this but the mix itself is still not one of the better ones. 
I love “Always See Your Face” as a closer. It’s one of the most perfect songs to ever exist imo.

    

“Music When The Lights Go Out” by The Libertines

    “Ride Into the Sun” by Lou Reed

    “Such a Shame” by The Kinks

    “Wait Till the Summer Comes Along” by The Kinks
    
“It Ain’t Me Babe” by Bob Dylan

    “The Fairest of The Season” by Nico

    “Always See Your Face” by Love

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  • Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 1 of many)

    

I have compiled Mix CDs for most of my life at this point and they mean a lot to me. As a teen I wasn’t (and am often still not) very good at sharing my feelings and making mix CDs was a way for me to connect to my mom and show her how I felt and what was important to me.
    
I am scared that one day the CDs will get scratched or lost and that I will somehow lose the record of these mixes and forget when and why I made them.

    So I wanna list all of the important details about all of them here so that the information is safe forever.

    Annas Mix 1:

    (27 min, upbeat happy mood)


    I reworked this one multiple times. The first version had almost none of the same songs. I started making my numbered mixes when I was about 12, so the reworked version is probably from when I was 13-14. It’s mostly older music I found through movies and TV shows. My mom really enjoyed this one because it’s not as depressing as most of my other mixes and she loves Janis Joplin.



    “It’s Alright, Baby” by Komeda
    “Soul Kitchen” by The Doors
    
“I’m A Believer” by the Monkees

    “The Joker” by Steve Miller Band
    “It’s Alright” by The Impressions
    
“Surfin’ U.S.A” by The Beach Boys
    “Me and Bobby McGee” Janis Joplin
    “Stranger in a Strange World” by Leon Russel


    

Annas Mix 2:
    
(36 min, as depressing as it gets)


    Also a reworked one from when I was about 14. I made this for really bad days.
    
I wouldn’t leave my house/room at the time for any reason (also refusing to go to school) and would spend most of every day by myself. My mom would often drive me around for 30-40 min and we would listen to these mixes, so I at least would get out of the house for a little while that way.

    

“Needle in the Hay” by Elliott Smith

    “No Name #1” by Elliott Smith

    “Between the Bars” by Elliott Smith

    “2:45 a.m.” by Elliott Smith

    “Like a Monkey in a Zoo” by Daniel Johnston
    
“I’ve been alone too long” by Soko
    
“A Minor Incident” by Badly Drawn Boy

    “Trouble”(Cat Stevens Cover) by Elliott Smith

    “Voice from the Mountain” by Nick Drake
    
“Eleventeen” by Kimya Dawson

    Annas Mix 3:

    (32 min, very upbeat, only 80s bangers)

    
I consumed a lot of media as a child/teen that was made by women who were teens in the 80s and who would frequently mention 80s music and films that were important to them as teens. Because I have a need to get pop culture references I started watching and listening to a lot of stuff from the 80s and developed an obsession with collecting and watching 80s teen movies. A lot of the music from this mix is from those movies.



    “Faith” by George Michael

    “Shadow Dancing” by Andy Gibb
    
“Jessie’s Girl” by Rick Springfield

    “Pretty in Pink” by Psychedelic Furs

    “We are not alone” by Karla Devito
    “Heart of Glass” by Blondie

    “Shy Boy” by Bananarama

    “Kiss” by Prince


    

Annas Mix 4:
    
(19 min, pretty, romantic, a bit melancholic)

    
This is the first mix I am still proud of and like a lot. It used to be longer but I cut a few songs at some point that were not perfect enough for me when I was feeling perfectionist at some point.
    As with the other early mixes almost all the songs are from movies and shows I love. Watching a lot of tv as a kid and teen was my main gateway to developing my own music taste and an interest for researching music history.



    “I don’t mind” by Slumber Party
    
“Only Yesterday” by Taken by Trees
    
“These Days” by Nico
    
“Oh Yoko!” by John Lennon
    
“Ooh La La” by The Faces

    “I Will” by The Beatles




    Annas Mix 5:
    

(27 min, sad, but somewhat hopeful, mostly 70s)


    This is one of my favorite mixes from back then. Also from when I was 13-14.

    I had a 60s/70s wannabe hippie phase and would always wear a floor-length patchwork skirt and John Lennon sun glasses. 
I had just watched Harold and Maude and The Graduate for the first time and through that learned of Cat Stevens and Simon and Garfunkel. Also my estranged father had sent me a couple of CDs as a gift to bond with me, one of them the White Album, which was my introduction to the Beatles.
 “Trouble” was my favorite song for a long time and “Cry Baby Cry” is still my favorite Beatles song.



    “Been Smoking too long” by Nick Drake

    “Way Over Yonder” by Carol King

    “Trouble” by Cat Stevens

    “If you want to Sing Out” by Cat Stevens
    
“Blackbird” by the Beatles

    “Where Do the Children Play” by Cat Stevens
    
“April Come She Will” by Simon & Garfunkel

    “Don’t be Shy” by Cat Stevens

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  • 27-year old movie characters

    I’ve (re)watched a lot of movies recently where an important character, most of the time the protagonist, turned out to be explicitly mentioned to be 27 years old (the same age as me) and it’s gotten to the point where I noticed it so often that I started keeping track of it.
    I screenshot-ed the scenes I couldn’t find good-quality screencaps of, myself.

    Btw it is sooo weird to me that ALL of the 27 old women in their respective movies are really insecure about their age and that it’s always implied that, for women, 27 is an age where you should worry about your desirability diminishing and be very stressed about finding a partner.
    Very strange messaging. I mean I am stressed out about that stuff, too, but not because of my age. lol

    Also: I really like all the movies on the list except for “Billy Madison”, but beware: “Naked” has a loooot of rape scenes in it, so big TW.

    • Pride and Prejudice (2005) – Charlotte Lucas
    • Frances Ha (2012) – Frances Halliday
    • The House Bunny (2008) – Shelley
    • My Best Friend’s Wedding (1997) – Julianne Potter
      (The guy she’s in love with turns out to be engaged to a 20-year-old btw which of course is being framed as very threatening to her 🙃)
    • American Psycho (2000) – Patrick Bateman
    • Naked (1993) – Johnny
    • Lars and the Real Girl (2007) – Lars Lindstrom
    • Billy Madison (1995) – Billy Madison
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  • The Movies I’ve rewatched the most in the last couple of years

    I’ve started logging every movie I watch on Letterboxd in October 2022. In-between then and now these are the movies I’ve (re)watched 3 or more times.

    Letterboxd also counted John Mulaneys newest special (watched 5 times), Bo Burnham’s Make Happy special (3 times) and the Netflix docu-series about Ghislaine Maxwell (3 times) but I don’t.
    I am also a bit ashamed of the last one because I didn’t even think it was good the first time. Don’t ask me why I’ve watched it so many times. I have no idea.

    Silver Linings Playbook – 5 times
    I love this movie so so much. For me it’s one of those movies you can watch when you feel completely hopeless and by the end your hope and faith in love and happiness is completely restored.

    Chungking Express – 5 times
    Cult classic. I was really obsessed with it for a little while and showed it to multiple people. Tbh I’m low-key already kind of sick of it by now. I think I’ve rewatched it one too many times.

    Past Lives – 4 times
    Celine Song had me at the Eternal Sunshine mention. Probably one of the best directorial debuts I’ve ever seen. (I should make a list about that) I’m sooo hyped for Materialists.

    May – 3 times
    My favorite horror movie atm. May is so me (except for the murdering people aspect). I actually found this movie through an “autistic girls” movie list on Letterboxd. May is not canonically autistic though, but it’s heavily implied with the way she’s written.

    Eighth Grade – 3 times
    Bo Burnham channeling his own anxiety through a coming-of-age story about a 14 year old girl who’s extremely awkward, insecure and unpopular? Yes please!

    Me and You and Everyone We Know – 3 times
    One of my favorite movies. I probably rewatched it an extra 3-5 times in the year before I made a Letterboxd account. I was very obsessed with it for a while.

    Kajillionaire – 3 times
    Another heavily autistic-coded protagonist in this one that I identify with strongly. Also probably my favorite sapphic love story of all time.

    Adaptation. – 3 times
    Genius movie and my favorite Nic Cage performance(which says a lot for me). Great for when you feel pathetic and insecure.

    Anomalisa – 3 times
    A stop motion movie about a guy who has a disorder which makes every person look and sound the same to him. But then he meets a girl (played by one of my favs Jennifer Jason Leigh) who doesn’t and romance and drama ensues…
    Warning: graphic puppet sex scene. Might be a bit awkward to watch with others.

    Jane Wants a Boyfriend – 3 times
    A movie about an autistic woman in her 20s who’s obsessed with movies. I mean come on! This was basically made for me.

    Twilight – 3 times
    It’s like my own personal brand of heroin.

    Booksmart – 3 times
    Probably the funniest teen movie of the last ten years.

    Bottoms – 3 times
    Fight Club but a teen rom-com for lesbians is such a great premise. Also I love Ayo Edebiri and Rachel Sennot in everything.

    Fallen Angels – 3 times
    The unofficial sequel to Chungking Express. Sort of its darker and raunchier counterpart, but still with similar themes (criminal activities, unrequited love, feeling lost)

    Mean Girls – 3 times

    Wicked – 3 times

    Bridget Jones’ diary – 3 times
    There’s a special bond between a girl and the movies that gave her body dysmorphia growing up. <3

    Love Actually – 3 times
    Does it still make me feel things? Yes. Do I think it aged horribly and do I love to hate it? Also yes.

    (the last two I rewatch once every year on Christmas)

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  • Bands and musicians I’ve wanted to or still want to see play live

    I’ll sort the names in different catagories:

    “will never happen” (because they died or the band broke up/stopped touring or someone turned out to be a nazi piece of shit *cough* Kanye *cough* Morrissey *cough*. Bob Dylan is in that category because I don’t think I will ever be able to afford a ticket lol)
    “has sort of happened” (I’ve seen parts of a band play their music for example -> John Cale playing Velvet Underground songs live or because I have technically seen them at a festival but I was too tired to appreciate it or had to leave for another concert after two songs)
    “has happened”
    “should’ve happened” (because I had tickets but then couldn’t go for some reason or because they played at a festival I was at but I didn’t go to the concert)
    and “could still happen” (I have put some bands in there that don’t tour atm/have broken up but I, for some reason still have hope)

    Another disclaimer: I have seen way more concerts and I want to see way more artists than are on the list. These are only the ones that felt significant.
    Also some artists I wouldn’t wanna support these days because of things that have come out about them that weren’t known at the time I saw them live but the concerts were still great so it felt wrong to exclude them. (Die Antwoord and Amanda Palmer)

    *”Regina Spettro” was meant to be Regina Spektor. My computer autocorrected and I didn’t notice until it was too late

    Also I forgot to put Mazzy Star in the will never happen catagory. 🙁

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