- Elliott Smith
- Jon Brion and how he is connected to everything I love
- Saturday Night Live history
- The OJ Simpson case
- Ted Bundy
- Binding of Isaac
- listing my favorite Simpsons episodes
- Pop culture references and musical guest stars in Gilmore Girls
- Nathan Fielder
- The H3 podcast (& scandal)
- 2010s edgelord youtubers
- 2010s/early 2020s Breadtube (I dislike half of them now)
- listing my favorite Vines
- how my DVD collection is sorted and why
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Topics to ask me about if you never want me to shut up again
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Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 7)
Mix 31:
(28 min, a bit depressing)
Made this one in 2018. I think I was still pretty heartbroken but I’m not even sure it really was because of a specific person but maybe just a general feeling of feeling rejected by the whole world. There are some of my all time favorite songs on this mix. Especially the Ween song has big importance to me. Pretty good mix!
Mrs. O by The Dresden Dolls
Outta me by Bikini Kill
What Deaner was talkin’ about by Ween
Had It All by Jeffrey Lewis
You’re so great by Blur
Stone On the Water by Badly Drawn Boy
Valentine by Fiona Apple
Good Day by The Dresden Dolls
Mix 32:
(32 min, hopeful mixed with some melancholy)I loooove this mix. It’s so good! I think it was at the beginning phase of a new crush. That always inspires the best mixes. You can almost hear all the lovely tender feelings seeping trough the music even though it’s also quite sad during some parts.
Therapy by Loudon Wainwright III
Weakest Shade of Blue by The Pernice Brothers
My Descent into Madness by Eels
Son of Sam by Elliott Smith
The Way Things Are by Fiona Apple
So Long by Rilo Kiley
No Name No. 5 by Elliott Smith
I Keep a Close Watch (John Cale Cover) by Courtney BarnettMix 33:
(47 min, deeply sad and heartbroken)
Ok, I was kind of dreading listening to this one again. I made it for someone I broke up with, to explain all the feelings I had at that moment. Which is admittedly kind of an insane move especially considering I put basically ALL of my favorite heartbreak songs on it and also a lot of my favorite songs in general (like The Poisoned Well and Happiness) and some ended up being tainted with the association of being on this mix for some years after. Why would one do that?? Especially for someone who didn’t treat me well and who I wanted to break up with anyway? My only excuse is that I was a fragile little 20 year old baby, which didn’t seem that young at the time but seems insanely young now.
The Poisoned Well by Quasi
Paper Bag by Fiona Apple
Anemone by The Brian Jonestown Massacre
Outta Me by Bikini Kill
In Love by The Raincoats
Good Things by Sleater-Kinney
Girl Anachronism by The Dresden Dolls
Fast As You Can by Fiona Apple
Tief Unten Nicht Ich by Fiva MC
Sweet Sound of Ignorance by Soko
Don’t Think Twice It’s Alright by Bob Dylan
Happiness by Elliott Smith
Goodbye Song by The Moldy PeachesMix 34:
(26 min, sad and heartbroken)
The unofficial sequel to the last one. Not nearly as good though.
Also sooo dramatic omg.
Save it for later and Get me Away…are very solid heartbreak songs though. Would recommend!
One by Aimee Mann
Love is a Losing Game by Amy Winehouse
Clouds (Quasi Cover) by Elliott Smith
Feels Blind by Bikini Kill
Miss World by Hole
Save it for Later by Pete Townsend
Hanging on a Star by Nick Drake
Get Me Away From Here, I’m Dying by Belle and Sebastian
Mix 35:
(32 min, sad and heartbroken – but less than before)What can I say? It takes a while for me to move on.
Really good mix though. Very beautiful music.Here We Go by Jon Brion
Don’t Leave the Light On, Baby by Belle and Sebastian
Fear is Like A Forrest by Courtney Barnett and Kurt Vile
Rein Gar Nichts by Element of Crime
Always See Your Face by Love
Fixing My Brain by Brad Sucks
Birthday Boy by Ween
Electro-Shock Blues by EelsFediverse reactions
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My current ranking of all the Elliott Smith albums
- Either/Or (1997)
- XO (1998)
- Elliott Smith (1995)
- New Moon (2007)
- Roman Candle (1994)
- Figure 8 (2000)
- From a Basement on the Hill (2004)
- Live at Largo (2004)
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My ratings of all the Treehouse of Horror episodes
I rewatched/watched (I hadn’t seen a lot of the new ones) all of the Treehouse of Horror episodes from the Simpsons this month.
It was very fun at first but I was over it fast because almost all of the newer ones are really terrible.
My way of rating is quite generous.
So 8 and above was good and enjoyable for me. Everything 7,5 and under was pretty bad.
I would recommend Seasons 2 to 12 and surprisingly Season 21, which was a musical episode that I quite liked.
Season 2 – 8/10
Season 3 – 9/10
Season 4 – 9,5
Season 5 – 9,5
Season 6 – 10
Season 7 – 8,5
Season 8 – 10
Season 9 – 9,5
Season 10 – 8,5
Season 11 – 9
Season 12 – 9
Season 13 – 6,5
Season 14 – 7,5
Season 15 – 7
Season 16 – 7
Season 17 – 6,5
Season 18 – 7
Season 19 – 6
Season 20 – 7
Season 21 – 8
Season 22 – 7
Season 23 – 6,5
Season 24 – 6
Season 25 – 6
Season 26 – 6
Season 27 – 5
Season 28 – 5
Season 29 – 6
Season 30 – 6
Season 31 – 6,5
Season 32 – 5,5
Season 33 – 6
Season 34 – 6,5
Season 35 – 7
Season 36 – 7
Season 37 – 6,5
Season 38 – tbd (it’s gonna air this weekend)Fediverse reactions
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Top 10 of my favorite Letterboxd lists (the ones I made)
- Autistic characters I find relatable
– When I first got my diagnosis one of the first things I was researching was autistic movie lists on Letterboxd. A couple of the ones on my own list are from back then (May and Little Voice i.e.) but most are actually from movies I’ve known for a long time and only realized how autistic coded they are while rewatching. I think my list is a really good resource for trying to understand how it can feel to be autistic. At least for me. - Ranking of the Vampire Movies I’ve Watched
– This list took years and if you are into the vampire movie genre I can highly recommend it. So much of the genre is pure trash and I needed to watch a lot of obscure movies to get to a few gems. So if you wanna take a shortcut, go with the list. - Movies to get to know me
– I’ve always had a fantasy of how when I would meet someone new I would just give them a big list of movies, TV shows, books and music that I strongly identify with and they would work through it and then just get me as person without me having to explain a lot. This is the mini version of that list. - Movies where I’m Team Edward
– Just silly and funny. I love stupid pointless lists that just point out small things random movies have in common. - Movies about mattresses and/or mattress salesmen
– see above - Movies where the guy is a douchebag and the girl is a weirdo who still likes him
– A very infuriating bunch of movies if you had to deal with dating a lot of shitty men. Watchers beware! - Movies that feel like an anxiety attack
– If you feel really anxious and want to lean into it and feel worse – there you go! - Good Movies having prominent Cat characters
– You’re welcome. - Best directorial debuts
– Already on the blog, so probably not that interesting. - Cinemas greatest Romances (according to me)
– very subjective and I didn’t put that much effort into the list tbh. But still a good bunch of movies…
Honorable Mentions:
My Favorite Movies
Nagetierfilme (rodent movies)
Movies related to ants
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Celebrity couples I am obsessed with for various reasons
- Reason: Because of the drama surrounding the relationship and because it bothers me how much I don’t know about it
Examples:
* Fiona Apple + Paul Thomas Anderson
* Sofia Coppola + Spike Jonze
* Lena Dunham + Jack Antonoff (+ Margaret Qualley)
* Miranda July + Mike Mills
* Anna Marie Tendler + John Mulaney (+ Olivia Munn)
* Selena Gomez + Justin Bieber (+ Hailey Bieber)
* Elliot Page + Celebrity Mystery Woman from his memoir
* Jason Segel + Linda Cardellini
* Fred Armisen + Elisabeth Moss
* Phoebe Bridgers + Paul Mescal (+ Gracie Abrams)
* Robert Pattinson + Kristen Stewart
* Elon Musk + Grimes
* Vanessa Hudgens + Austin Butler (+ Kaia Gerber)
* Ben Affleck + Both Jennifers (separately)
* Lily Allen + David Harbour
* Ariana Grande + Ethan Slater
2. Reason: Because I love/like both of them and think they’re very wholesome and perfect for each other
Examples:
* Kirsten Dunst + Jesse Plemons
* Melanie Lynskey + Jason Ritter
* Robbie Hoffman + Gabby Windey
* Rachel Bloom + Dan Gregor
* Phoebe Waller-Bridge + Martin McDonagh
* Sarah Michelle Gellar + Freddie Prinze Jr.
* Andy Samberg + Joanna Newsom
* Kathleen Hanna + Ad-Rock
* Tom Holland + Zendaya
* Brenda Song + Macauley Culkin
* Dan Howell + Phil Lester
* Nick Offerman + Megan Mulally
* Melissa McCarthy + Ben Falcone
3. Reason: Because I love/like both of them and am just obsessed with the fact that they were once together (but didn’t work out)
Examples:
* Michael Cera + Aubrey Plaza
* Zooey Deschanel + Jason Schwartzman
* Alexis Bledel + Milo Ventimiglia
* Bill Hader + Ali Wong
* Kristen Stewart + Soko
* Fiona Apple + Jonathan Ames
* Emma Stone + Kieran Culkin
* Peter Krause + Lauren Graham
* Carrie Brownstein + Corin Tucker - Reason: Because of the drama surrounding the relationship and because it bothers me how much I don’t know about it
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My Top 10 Favorite Sad Songs
No Elliott Smith on this one. He will get his own list some day. Otherwise half the spots would’ve been his songs.
I also excluded all songs that are mainly about heartbreak. They are their own thing and also deserve a list.- Soko – Sweet Sound of Ignorance (2017)
- Aimee Mann – Save Me (1999)
- Badly Drawn Boy – A Minor Incidence (2002)
- Cat Stevens – Trouble (1970)
- The Smiths – Asleep (1987)
- Alexander feat. RZA – Truth (2010)
- Eels – Not Ready Yet (1996)
- Mac Miller – Good News (2020)
- Jon Brion – Song for Caden (2008)
- Daniel Johnston – Like A Monkey In A Zoo (1980)
Honorable Mentions:
Jeffrey Lewis – Anxiety Attack (2005)
Jon Brion – Little Person (2008)
Soko – How are you (2012)
Kimya Dawson – Walk like Thunder (2011)
Kimya Dawson – 12/26 (2006)
Sia – Breathe Me (2004)
Joanna Sternberg – This is not who I want to be (2019)
Kendrick Lamar (feat. Beth Gibbons) – Mother I sober (2022)
Labrinth (feat. Zendaya) – I’m Tired (2022)
Eels’ album “Electro Shock Blues” (1998)
John Frusciante’s album “Curtains” (2005)
Half of Nick Drake’s and Daniel Johnston’s catalogue of music
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My favorite songs by Daniel Johnston
Daniel Johnston has been one of my favorite artists since I was a teenager and his music gave me a lot of comfort during some of the worst times in my life.
Today is the anniversary of his death, so I’m gonna post this list to honor him and to share his music with others.
His music often feels inaccessible to people who don’t know it I think because a lot of it is very lo-fi and raw and a bit much. But there are countless treasures in his discography that I think a lot of people could/would appreciate if they gave it a chance.
In addition to his music I also would like to highly recommend checking out his art and maybe watching one or both of the movies that have been made about/with him. They are really really special and great.
The first is feature length and called “The Devil and Daniel Johnston” and the second one is a short (about 15 min) called “Hi, How Are You, Daniel Johnston?”.
And as another added bonus I put a list of my favorite covers of Daniel Johnston songs by other artists at the end.
1. Lazy (from Songs of Pain, 1980)2. Like a Monkey in the Zoo (from Songs of Pain, 1980)
3.True Love will find you in the End (from Retired Boxer, 1984)
4. Why, Without you (from The What of Whom, 1982)
5. Some Things last a long Time (from 1990, 1990)
6. Ghost of our Love (from Continued Story, 1985)
7. Loner (from Don’t Be Scared, 1982)
8. The Sun shines down on me (from Don’t Be Scared, 1982)
9. Come see me tonight (from 1992 originally I think, but I know it from the My so-called Life Soundtrack, 1995)
10. I Live my Broken Dreams (live performance at Liberty Lunch in Austin, Texas, 1985)
Honorable Mentions:
Despair came knocking , My Yoke is heavy, Grievances, The Story of an Artist, Museum of Love, Tears stupid Tears, A Walk in the Wind, I had lost my Mind, Don’t be Scared, Walking the Cow, BrainwashBONUS:
List of my favorite covers of Daniel Johnston Songs:
* Speeding Motorcycle by Yo la Tengo
(Featured on their album Fakebook)
* Some Things last a long Time by Lana del Rey
(featured during the Credits of Hi, How are you, Daniel Johnston?)
* Living Life by Kathy Mccarty
(featured during the Credits of Before Sunrise)
*True Love will find you in the End by Beck
* Walking the Cow by Alicia Edelweiss
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Sommer Hassliste a.k.a. warum Sommer die schlimmste Jahreszeit ist
Bin offen für mehr Hass-Input von anderen, also teilt gern mit mir!
- schwitzig/klebrig sein
- stinken
- mehrere Male am Tag duschen müssen
- Sonnencreme benutzen müssen, die meine Haut klebrig macht
- Gezwungen sein Kleidung zu tragen die viel von meinem Körper zeigt, auch wenn ich mich gerade unwohl fühle damit
- mehrere Male am Tag Kleidung wechseln müssen und viel mehr Wäsche waschen bzw ständig Stress haben das nicht genug nicht verschwitzte Kleidung da ist
- Zu früh aufwachen
- Nicht einschlafen können wegen Hitze bzw allgemein schlechtere Schlafqualität und weniger Schlaf
- Angewiesen sein auf Klimageräte und Ventiltoren die ständig Geräusche machen
- An großen Teilen des Tages nicht spazieren gehen könne ohne vor Hitze zu sterben
- Mehr Anxiety und innere Anspannung bzw. wegen Seasonal Affective Disorder (ja, das gibt’s auch im Sommer für manche Leute) generell schlechtere Mental Health
- Katzen wollen weniger kuscheln
- Mein junger Kater miaut viel mehr weil er draußen Abenteuer erleben will (was er nicht darf) statt in der heißen Wohnung zu sein
- Ständige Sorge, dass die hohen Temperaturen gefährlich werden könnten für vulnerable Leute/Tiere (Behinderte, Babies/Kleinkinder, Haustiere, etc.)
- Angst ohnmächtig zu werden bei zu schnellen Aufstehen oder Sport thanks to niedrigen Blutdruck (ist in vergangenen Sommern immer wieder mal passiert)
- Fliegen und Insekten überall
- Katzenfutter wird viel schneller schlecht
- Fliegen legen Eier in Katzenfutter, wodurch man dauernd Katzenfutter wegschmeißen muss (dank neuen Fliegengittern seit kurzem kein Thema mehr zum Glück)
- Wasserflaschen die herumstehen werden ständig warm
- Ständige Konfrontation mit all den Dingen die Sommer erträglicher machen würden wenn man nicht arm wäre (Klimaanlagen, Pools, Reisen, Außengehege für den Kater)
- Ständige Konfrontation mit dem eigenen und anderen Körpern und dem Vergleich dazwischen
- Ständiges FOMO und das Gefühl etwas falsch zu machen, weil scheinbar alle anderen den Sommer “gut nützen”, Spaß haben und activities machen während man selbst hauptsächlich versucht durch den Tag zu kommen ohne auszuzucken
- Öffis fahren ist noch unerträglicher durch Hitze, Gestank schwitziger Menschen und gezwungenen Körperkontakt mit klebrigen stinkenden Fremden
- Mehr mentally unwell (statistisch belegt) Leute in der Öffentlichkeit die herumschreien und Konfrontation suchen
- Ständige Konfrontation mit der Realität der Klimakrise und dass das Leben auf diesem Planeten (vor allem als behinderte, nicht reiche person) zunehmend schrecklich werden wird und alles aussichtslos ist
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Archive of all the numbered Mix CDs/playlists I ever made (Part 6)
Annas Mix 26:
(42 min, mellow and pretty)
From when I was 18/19. Pretty solid mix. Lots of 10/10 songs that still mean a lot to me. Once Around the Block, Green Grass and Do you Believe are some of the most perfect songs ever made imo.
If you want to see one of the most heartfelt beautiful performances ever watch this version of Do You Believe:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yf_HaZLZ6Gs
Bitch, Can’t Kill My Vibe by Kendrick Lamar
Ms by Alt-J
Once Around the Block by Badly Drawn Boy
Unknown Brother by The Black Keys
Weißes Papier by Element of Crime
So He Won’t Break by The Black Keys
Bitte bleib by AnnenMayKantereit
Green Grass by Tom Waits
Harmony by The Avalanches
Do You Believe by Melanie
Goodbye Song by The Moldy Peaches
Annas Mix 27
(40 min, a bit strange and unhinged, in a good way)
I really had a vision here. I still really like it but would change a few songs that don’t quite fit right.
Also first Deca appearance, who I would end up listening to death in the next 5-10 years. The boyfriend of my best friend back then had a really nice taste in music, especially rap and would often play Deca at her place. I am pretty sure he also introduced me to Kendrick.
Prnavor by Emir Kusturica & the No Smoking Orchestra
Mad World by Gary Jules
Poor Jackie by Man Man
Bully Boys by The Tiger Lillies
Bad Habit by The Dresden Dolls
My Alcoholic Friends by The Dresden Dolls
Rabbit Habbits by Man Man
Charlotte Mittnacht by DeVotchka
Was Romeo Really A Jerk by Emir Kusturica & the No Smoking Orchestra
Maschin by Bilderbuch
Movement by Deca
Annas Mix 28 :
(21 min, depressing)
Anything But The Truth by Jack Johnson
Abused by Elliott Smith
No Surprises by Radiohead
Verlorene Zeit by Fiva MC
My Eyes by The Lumineers
Creep (Hungover at Soundcheck in Berlin) (Radiohead Cover) by Amanda Palmer
Annas Mix 29:
(28 min, a bit depressing but not too bad)
I have so many important memories tied to the songs on this mix. I remember listening to Damaged Goods in a flixbus to Amsterdam, while heartbroken over an unrequited crush, I remember listening to In My Mind in my moms garden on a warm night with a close friend of mine (who I’m still friends with <3) after talking about how we always end up unhappily in love with people, I remember showing this to a guy I really liked and him telling me later that he thought it was a good mix and that he listened to it again.
In Love is btw is still the best song to describe how it feels to me to have a crush.
Hey by Pixies
Doll Parts by Hole
In Love by The Raincoats
Bastard by Petsch Moser
Liebes Tagebuch by Tocotronic
I Was Born (A Unicorn) by The Unicorns
Anxiety Attack by Jeffrey Lewis
Damaged Goods by Days N’ Daze
In My Mind by Amanda Palmer
Annas Mix 30 :
(33 min, somewhat depressing and heartbroken)
Perfect mix. 10/10. It was the second to last mix I made fuelled by my heartbreak over someone I was unhappily in love with for years.
Unrelated but still noteworthy: Not Ready Yet is one of the best songs ever and should be the official anthem of all anxious people.
I Don’t Wanna Die by The Unicorns
Not Ready Yet by Eels
Fake Plastic Trees (Radiohead Cover) by Amanda Palmer
Waltz #2 (XO) by Elliott Smith
Not About Love (original Jon Brion version) by Fiona Apple
Don’t You Touch Me by Soko
Ich mache meinen Frieden mit euch by Tocotronic
Alphabet by Jeffrey Lewis
Unter Vier Augen by Waxolutionists feat. FivaFediverse reactions
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