- All of Fleabag Season 2, most importantly the last episode of the season (most most importantly the wedding “love is awful” monologue + “It’ll pass”!!)
- “Me and you and everyone we know” (2005) – That one’s probably the least depressing. I use it like a tool to make the transition from wallowing to feeling like I’m gonna be okay.
- Bojack Horseman – One or all of the episodes: “Downer Ending”, “Stupid piece of shit” (pool scene!!!) or “Funeral”
- Mitski music videos, especially the ones for “Your best American Girl” and “Nobody”
- “Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind” (2004) – I usually just rewatch my favorite scenes: atm it’s the Bird scene and the one where baby Joel is bathing in the sink, when I was younger I would rewatch the “Am I ugly?” scene religiously.
- “Magnolia” (1999) – again, I usually just rewatch my favs: all the Donnie Smith scenes + the restaurant scene between Claudia and Jim + the ending)
- The last two songs from Bo Burnham’s “Make Happy” special – “Kanye rant” and “Are you happy?”
- Euphoria -“Trouble Don’t Last Always” (the special episode focused on Rue where she meets her sponsor and the whole episode is just them having a conversation. Great episode to watch as a stand alone piece, even if you haven’t seen the rest of the show.)
- “Synecdoche, New York” (2008) – specifically the Funeral monologue and the songs from the movie: “Little Person” and “Song for Caden” by Jon Brion. Especially the ladder always hits so hard. It captures a distinct sadness I feel a lot and have felt for most of my life, better than almost anything else.
- All the therapy scenes from “Good Will Hunting” (1997) where Robin Williams is giving Will harsh pep talks. My favorite is the one where he talks about people not being perfect, where he improvised the line about his wife farting in her sleep. One of my all time favorite scenes in any movie.
Honorable Mentions:
– The music video by Soko for the song “Sweet sound of Ignorance” one of my favorite songs of all time and the video is also a vibe.
– Science of Sleep (2006) – the ending scene is my favorite
– “Adaptation.” (2003) – best movie to watch when you’re feeling self loathing and insecure. Also one of the best movies of all time in general in my opinion.
– The recording of the last concert Elliott smith ever played (19/03/03), specifically his acoustic cover of Heatmiser’s (his own band’s) “Something to lose” he played during that show
– From an episode of “The Jon Brion Show” from 2000 where Elliott Smith was on, the videos of when they play “Trouble” and “Happiness”.
– Videos of Fiona Apple singing “Paper Bag” and “Fast as you can” during a live show at Club Largo 20-25 years ago. I love both songs in general, but the live versions from that show specifically are some of my favorite stuff on all of YouTube. I think I have watched both those videos at least 50 times each.
There’s also a live version of “I know” at Largo from the same era that’s soooo good. I just rediscovered it again after writing this list.
– Trisha Paytas – “I’m a chicken nugget” YouTube video
